I think its because I'm at work today and there happens to be 4 inches of snow on the ground here in Knoxville, which by the way, never happens, but I think corporate America sucks right now. We are such a money driven society that we can't afford to take off one day from everything and just sit at home and enjoy the beauty of snow. Nope. Have to be at work making money for someone else. Even on Christmas day, things are open because we as Americans can't go one day without our Wal-Mart or freshly ground gourmet coffee. Today I'll sit behind this computer and probably only work on one project all day. Otherwise a waste of time. But they'll be somebody. That one lone architect that needs some drawings right away that I'll have to do so he can make his 3 figure salary. Can we not stop for one day? Just one day? Maybe thats whats wrong with us....we never have time to just rest. Oh and as for the feds wanting to raise the age of retirement......what the? Is it not enough for those that are 65 to have work all that time to get so little back? I've got an idea...lets all just work our asses off till we die so we can buy European vacations for someone else. Because I love to keep giving our government raises and 2 month vacations. And here's a thought.....for those that are 65 and older that continue to hold on to their jobs, and the job market for those that are younger continues to dimenish...what do we have to say to that? Create more jobs? Tried it. Change professions? Won't happen. Retire some of these codgers so they can enjoy life? Thats it! But wait! If we do that then they won't have to pay as much taxes...we'll have to pay them....then we can't afford our surplus of $300 pens that we use to pick our noses with while we're on our 2 month vacation in the Swiss Alps. What will we do! Ok...I'm done being pissed. :lol: Hey Angie! :D
I am now less than one week away till I get to see Linkin Park and POD in concert for my first time. Two of my all time most infulential artist in one night under one roof. And this is more than just a concert to me. This will be a life experience. As for the show, let me tell you why this is so important to me. Linkin Parks lyrics speak to my soul. Some of you may not understand that, but its so true for me. Its as if they wrote their first album the "hybrid theory" with the blood from my own heart. I couldn't have written it any better myselft. Every word, every scream, every note in the music describes how I felt at the time that album came out. My relationship with Grey destroyed me....well it almost did. No I take it back....she destroyed who I once was and in return created who I've become. I'm not sure if what I am now is better than what I was, but I know that its different. The anger has began to finally subside, but the bitterness is still there as well as my shyness towards organized religion. I've never left my faith, but I think I've lost my faith in the church. When the acorn falls...it doesn't fall far.
This morning on my way to work all I wanted to do was listen to music. No radio...straight cds. I started with some Finch and ended with Story of the Year, which I can not wait to see in concert next week. They rock my socks off. I consume myself with music. Its the door to my soul I'm sure. I think today on the way home I'll jam to Linkin Park...why not. Gotta give a shout out to my nizzle in the 615 Angie. You're my girl Angie! When we meet it'll be off the heezy fasheezy ya heard! hahaha I'm such a dork. Anyways, I really enjoy talking you and look forward to every converstaion we have. By the way for everyone else...check out www.embracethevampires.com I think thats right....Angie, hurt me if its not. We out...word to your mother.
I'm amazed at so many things. Last night was a good night. I had some great conversation with a friend that seems to stimulate my mind everytime we speak. Its a great feeling. There's something I"m concerned with however. Listening to the radio this morning I heard the guys talking about how cops do some dirty things. Now, not all cops are dirty, but there are some that abuse the power. Case...the sherriff here says there's no quota on tickets. My ass. Thats why at the end of the month you can't wipe your nose without a cop writting you a ticket for it. Especially if the end of the month falls at the end of the month. There was a large drug sweep here yesterday and 50 people were arrested but only 20 were arrested on drug charges. It was like, "well, since we're here, mine as well take you in for having expired tags on the car sitting on blocks in your drive." Ridiculous. I could think of so many more things to do. Its awesome, go for the drugs, but leave those other people alone that have done nothing. Nothing worse than a power abusing cop.
So as I slept last night, I swept away into this dream land that for some reason my mind wants me to frequent often. Its so familiar but yet so far from reality. Last night I dreamt of Heidi yet once again. Heidi, my high school sweet heart and the woman I was sure to spend my life with. How things change. But yet after all these years, I still find myself having dreams about her. Whats most weird is that she exactly how I remember her. Nothing imagined or made up...just how she left me. Very strange. Does her memory haunt me? Do I bring her back? Do I miss her? Will I see her again? Will I get to answer these questions? I believe so.
So here we are in the beginning of Feb and there's lingering snow all around....except on the ground here in knoxville. What happened to the days of 6 inch snows and no school? I think it may be a thing of the past. I don't know what it is about snow days that get me stoked but I love it. I remember back in the day we'd get out of school for snow and my friends and I would spend entire days of doing nothing but playing snow football, sega genesis, and finding the most terrifying hill to sled down in attempts for immortal glory among my peers. Yeah, we were dumb kids. I miss those days. I just wanna be lazy today, but it's so not like me to be lazy. Maybe thats what I need; a lazy day. I just really don't wanna be at work. Sleep would be nice. Or maybe a nice hike in the snow covered Smokies. Terrible blog...but I'll be back later.
